Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I am having a great time incorporating Islam into my life and learning every that Allah (s.w.t) has willed us to do. I have yet to start taking arabic although I have a few friends that speak it and are willing to teach me. I am trying the best that I can and I know i have a ways to go. As far as being a true muslim women, I am taking it day by day. But I will be honest. As soon as I feel as if I am making progress, I learn something else that I am doing that I shouldnt. I can understand why islam is intimidating to others. It can be overwhelming and thats where I am. I am happy with my decision to become muslim. I just feel as if Its taking me so long to grow. Living in the states doesnt help. I am a student and have class during juma. This bothers me because I feel like this is my chance to connect with other muslim sisters however, I cannot miss class. My schedule does not permit for me to make my five prayers on time as they come in. Is this an excuse? no, not at all. I know I need to do a better job with this. I will pray to Allah to guide me in the straight path and to know that for every area i fail in, its not intended. While I am happy to be muslim, I feel bad that some things are hard for me to accept. For instance, short sleeves, makeup, eyebrows, nail polish, ect. These are just to name a few. I didnt drink before so that has not been a problem, neither is things like not clubbing. Just some things im trying to get use too. I will not get discourage however, I just will learning and reading and praying and doing the right thing inshallah. To my fellow bloggers, how good are you all with making your 5 salats. I have attached a poll let me know, I am interested in this. Shukrain!