Inspired Muslimah

Salaams everyone, I hope you are all having a wonderful ramadan insha'allah! Im having a good one. I have been very busy with school, so I havent been blogging lately. I will be back blogging more regularly after ramadan is over. As of now my days are really pretty busy. It starts with sahor and fajr first thing in the morning.Then I go to school for most of the day, come home study for a bit, cook iftar, then study some more and Im off to bed. Not exciting what so ever. I havent even been to any iftar's this whole ramadan! Its ok I guess. There really isnt the time. I pretty much just have time to pray,eat,and go to school. LOL. Salaams

I am getting this new mac desktop next week. I have a macbook but I get tired of being on a laptop all the time so I cant wait!

I have the honor of being tagged by M.J. from A Muslim Wife, NeverEver, and Umm Travis, so here its goes.....TEN THINGS ABOUT INSPIRED MUSLIMAH!

Salaams everyone, Im sorry I havent posted anything new in a while. I have been sick and soo busy with work lately but I have missed blogging so much! Not much new going on in my world. In 2 weeks Im going on a cruise to the bahama's and Im soo excited for a vacation,alhamdullilah! I even looked up some masjids in the bahama's and hopefully I will get a chance to visit them. I have been to the bahama's already but I am excited to go back. The shopping and aquarium in Atlantis are awesome and there is a lot to do. It should be a good trip,nice and relaxing and exactly what I need. After this trip, I plan to start preparing for ramadan, which is not that far away, isnt that something!! I cant believe its almost that time of the year again and I plan on it being a better one that last year for me. I am improving my deen and insha'allah I will be a better muslimah this upcoming ramadan. I plan to do lots of studying and reading to get prepared and I plan on buying a really nice abaya for Eid. WOW, that sounds crazy to be talking about outfits for Eid already. Whew! Where did the year go??? Alhamdullilah, we survived another year.

Salaams everyone, today is my bday. Im not doing much, just relaxing at my parents house. Ironically enough, its my sisters bday too. We were born on the same day 4 years apart, isnt that weird?? People always ask me does it bother me and I always say ofcourse not,for one, I dont know any other way and besides I love my sis to death, there is no one I'd rather share it with. So Im just chilling on the deck, listening the water from the fountain and thanking Allah (s.w.t) for blessing me with another year. Salaams. Here are some pics I just took. Im just sitting here, as you can see in the pics, and Im thanking Allah for all the blessings I have in my life. Its has been rough year for me ( only by my standards because everyone says Im spoiled, nothing major has happened) and Im starting to feel better about things and about life alhamdullilah.

Salaams all my sisters in islam. Im Back.LOL. I have taken a much needed break from life, blogging, work and everything else. Prior to my vacation, I had been working a lot of hours and finishing a rough semester in pharmacy school. Im earning my doctorate of pharmacy ( pharm.D) and I have to say I am quite sick of school. I did the traditional college thing and went right after highschool to get my bachelors and my masters. I am now finishing up the pharm.d and had plans to go to law school as well but enough is enough. Iam tired of school and Iam ready to begin the next phase of my life. Marriage and children,insha'allah. Its hard finding the right person for you, ya know? I think I may have found him but I also have many reservations, which is not a good sign to me. Anyhow, I have been extremley busy and I went to washington d.c for a week on vacation. I am in LOVE with that city and I will definitly be moving there after graduation. I think what attracts me the most is the diversity I see all around me. I have to say the best thing I see while there is Muslims everywhere!!! Alhamdullilah!!!!! I love it. I feel so comfortable there. When I am in the mall or something, particulary Tysons corner, I am amazed. Sisters everywhere!! I must have visited 7 muesuems and guess what else?? I was on my way to the holocust musuem the day of the shooting!!!! I was walking down the street towards it when all of sudden I start hearing all this commotion, cops everywhere, helicopters above. I find out there has been a shooting at the museum and I am speechless because I was on my way. All I can say is Allah Akbar. Wow, I felt terrible for the victim and blessed that Allah spared me from witnessing it. Even still I love D.C. Its so wonderful and when I feel my deen slipping it would help to have a nice muslim community to be a part of. I feel like an outcast here sometimes. Most of the sisters I see around town look very different from me...

Also sisters, do you ever go through bouts of depression and you wonder what you did to Allah to make him upset. I know this sounds silly but I have been having the roughest time lately. My parents blame themselves because they say by spoiling me when I was a child, I have a unrealstic view of life and to a certain extent this is true. I have never struggled financially,mentally, or emotionally and now I feel a mess all around. I was making such progress with my deen and trying to do the right thing with my hijab and prayers and I feel like my love actually got harder instead of easier, which is what I anticipated. I thought if i did right by Allah, Allah would do right by me. Now before you misunderstand me. I know everyday I wake up that Allah has done right by me and actually I can work all of my life being a good muslim and will never be able to repay Allah for all he has given me. Iam soo thankful and grateful for my life and I have a great one. I just feel as if I am having a lot of bad luck lately and Iam down about it. My future MIL has told me what I am going though is typical because she said Allah only test the Believer. Prior to reverting to Islam, life was good and easy. Since my conversation, I have gained so much knowlege alhamdullilah, but I also experience many hardships. I feel like shayton has made it his personal business to ruin my life and Iam like why me Allah??? I was really like starting to feel like things were going my way and now all of sudden my life is totally craZy, unorganized and I dont even know where to begin on damage control??!!!

Partially my blues come from the fact that my birthday is coming up and I think every year around my bday I start evaluating my life and I when I fall short of my goals, I am extremley hard on myself. I never thought I would still be not married and have no children. I know I have plenty of time ( Im not even 30 yet) but why do I feel like my clock is ticking?! Does anyone else have these concerns. Now that I am muslim, I feel like it will be harder to find a mate.Especially in the city Im in...Like I mentioned before, I guess I am engaged but I dont know if he is the one...

I know need to grow up and realize that everyone has it rough and its not personal. Allah loves me and this I know. I am not even close to where I need to be and honest I may have taken a few steps back. Make duas for me sisters because I have been to struggle with things I have never struggled with all my life. In my time of need when I should be running to Allah (s.w.t) I find myself running the opposite direction. Isnt this backwards??? Yes, I realize this.I am praying that I can get back on track, I am sure it wont be long. I mean dont worry, Iam not totally digressing.Like doing haraam things like drinking and stuff. I just have been slacking on my prayers ( NOT COOL) and other stuff.....well I think I have vented enough and I miss reading blogs and posting stuff, so Iam back!!!! I love you all for the sake of Allah :)

Salaams everyone and I hope everyone had a good weekend.I had a very nice one masha'Allah.Friday I went to my parents and spent the night.yesterday I went to get a trim and deep condition and I got a manicure and pedicure with my mom.We later (myself ,parents, sister and godson) went to this shopping area that has a lot of restaurants and things to do.we went to the bookstore,got gelato,went to anne taylor loft and went to the cheesecake factory. Btw Anne Taylor loft has some super cute spring and summer items and it's both affordable and hijabi friendly for a lot of the items.it was a nice day. Today we cooked out because it was 85 and just enjoyed the weather.I was on another sisters blog and I learned of a channel called the islam channel,I am not sure who get it's,maybe London (lucky!!!) but anyhow they have a show called city sisters.the awesome thing is most of them are on you tube so if you don't get this network which I don't you can enjoy them on you tube.it's so awesome!! Sorry if there are many typos since i'm posting this via a text message on my iPhone.which is sooo near by the way! I had a good weekend and I hope you all did as well.I will post some episodes of city sisters and some cut stuff from Anne Taylor later.salaams :)

Salaams sisters. Summer is approaching and although I converted to islam last july and it was still hot then, I had yet to wear hijab properly. Now that I do wear my hijab everyday the right way, I am so nervous about the upcoming summer season. I love clothes soo much but I love Allah more so I know I will do the right thing insha'allah but Im still nervous and on top of that I feel like I no longer have a fabulous wardrobe! It has been relatively easy to convert my late winter/early spring wardrobe into a hijabi wardrobe but there is no hope for my summer wardrobe. I have so many cute tanks and capris and dresses and I dont know what to do about them. I can wear cute cardigans with some stuff and now the search is on. I have to buy every cute little sweater I can find. I feel like I seriously need a little a thousand to get on the right track and I plan on investing a lot into my new wardrobe. I dont think I should have to give up feeling cute and comfortable just because Iam wearing hijab. I plan on going to the gap or express and buying a lot of cute long sleeve cotton shirts, and 3/4 sleeve tops. I have also seen some super cute long dresses that will be perfect with a cute cardigan. At least Iam cool in the shoe department. LOL. But I need to buy a ton more scarves, accesories,and hijabs. I really like starscarves because they are cute and affordable and get this...I am actually in the process of buying a..drumroll..ABAYA!!! Alhamdullilah for how far I have come and I have all my sisters to thank for giving me inspiration and letting me know I can do it. Blogging has been the best thing ever for me and I so glad I stumbled upon beautiful muslimah a year ago because blogging has really made my conversion to islam a lot easier. Well thats all for now. :)

As salaamu alaiykum sisters, today I had a nice day alhamdullilah. I went out to the cheesecake factory and shopping with my parents and sister, my first outing as a hijabi with my family, alhamdullilah! It went really well, my family is super supportive and things are going really well. I have been my hijab for almost 1 month and I am soo happy and proud of myself. Like I said before, I had worn hijab previously before but never full time every day all day. I have been wearing it full time and I have not left the house without it. My coworkers,classmates,and family have all been great about it. Yesterday I wore my favorite scarf,which is a rich blend of reds,oranges,green, and gold. Its a very beautiful scarf,masha'allah. I received so many compliments on it and Im feeling much more confident in my hijab these days. I just pray to Allah that it last. I hope I have crossed that hump for the last time. Im wearing hijab and praying regularly and increasing my deen insha'allah. I currently reading great women of islam and its soo amazing, I cant wait to finish and do a post about it. Thats all for now, salaams, but keep me in your duas sisters, so that I may be as strong as you!

So I wore hijab to the pharmacy today, this was a different site than yesterday. I got a few compliments on how pretty I looked and I wondered did they think I was just making a fashion statement?? Eventually someone said to me " are you muslim?" and I said yes even though I think its inappropriate to ask me this. He then replied, I would have never know. This was such a wake up call to me and it made me feel horrible. I dont know exactly what he meant by it and he didnt say it mean or anything but still, he was surprised that I was a muslim. This made me think a lot about my behavior and how I carry myself. Am I carrying myself like a muslimah even when I do not wear hijab? Perhaps thats the significance of wearing hijab because it makes you be in remembrance of Allah (s.w.t.) at all times. When I am in hijab I do carry myself in a different manner, I watch my words,what I watch on tv,or what music I listen, I watch myself to avoid backbitting and participating in useless gossip and more. I am seriously having a rude awakening this week. I can admit that when I am in hijab I am a overall better person. Alhamdullilah the light bulb has finally turned on!!! However sisters, this doesnt mean I dont miss my hair sometimes. I think the key to being a successful hijabi is having confidence. Something I didnt have before when I wore hijab and it was like a hardship on me. But this week I have woken up excited about wearing hijab and I even ordered $100 worth of scarves and pins and undercaps from a store called star scarves?? I will post more about that later. I feel so different this week.Proud to be muslim,proud to have on my scarf. This is the firs time I have felt this. Make duas for me that this continues and I continue to wear hijab. Salaams

WOW so salaams everyone, its has been way to long.I will quickly update you with whats going on with me. I went to NYC and had a blast. We went to a bunch of cool( but expensive :( ) restaurants and I did a bunch of shopping. I was gone for an entire week and I stayed in 3 different hotels ( long story). I had soo much but at the end of the trip I was ready to come home. Too much living out of a suitcase! I came back to cold weather and lots of school and it was hard to deal with so I have been down.....but alhamdullilah, the sun has been out all week and the weather has been beautiful and my mood has improved substantially. I need help increasing my deen which has been teetering and I need to read more quran and put more time into islam. I am sure this is what is lacking in my life. I feel soo much better when I am learning or listening quran and I have been so busy I have neglected my islamic studying. I had to wake up early this morning and let me tell you, losing that hour of sleep really kicked my butt!!! The good news is that now it will be light until about 730, so thats awesome. I wanted to go to tanning today but today went by so fast, I didnt get a chance,maybe tomorrow. I went to work and then came to my parents for dinner and now my mom is making brownies.....yummy....I will eat dessert, watch my sunday night tv shows and then drive home. I am tempted to sleep here because Iam soo tired but since I am soo tired I really want my comfy pillowtop mattress... I will see you soon...I cant wait to catch up with the blog world and sorry I havent been commenting. I love you all for the sake of Allah.

Asalamu Alaikom Everyone...Sorry I have been absent lately. I have had so much going on with school and clinical and just life. I am about to go to bed because I have a 10 am flight to nyc tomorrow. I am going to hang out with my girlfriends from college. We are going to go to restaurants, see a broadway play, shop and I would love to visit a masjid or 2. I will be gone for about a week. Thats a long time...I am homesick already..I will miss my pillowtop mattress...and more,but alhamdullilah,I am able to travel so I am blessed. Make dua's for me sisters.... I will keep you all posted on my trip. Ok sidebar, I am flying Continental and Iam sooo peeved about the whole luggage thing. I have to pay $15 for my first bag and $25 for the second!!!!!!!!! Thats just one way! I have to pay $80 all together and it super annoys me!! I will keep you all posted and post pictures too, Love you all for the sake of Allah

Salaams everyone I am in the midwest and its snowing like crazy! We already have gotten 6 inches and we are expected to get 8 to 10 more inches before the storm lets up. I hate the snow and winter!!!!!!! We finally got a snow day and I was wondering if this isnt the type of weather that illicit a snow day,what does???? Whats wrong is that it took till almost noon for them to cancel most of the colleges and universities. I had already decided I wasnt going but I have a lot of friends who bared the elements and now school is cancel and they are just out there in that mess. That sucks. Since I have snow day today, I will catch up on reading quran and work on some things I have been wanting to post. I am also watching little women on HBO on demand..Random right?? I have never seen it and I just felt like watching it. I also want to figure out how to adder blogger mobile to my iphone so I can easily post pics and post from my phone..which by the way, gets more amazing by the day!

I have not been posting lately because I have been so overwhelmed with school. Test immediately following my winter break has snatched up all my time. I am also a little down. I had to pay $625 for my car to get 2 new tires and new breaks. That sucks so bad, because I couldve done soooo much more with that! I finally bought the new iphone and I am so in love with it. That cheered me up a little but I am still down. Its winter, its cold, muslims are dying in Gaza, school is hard...I can go on and on.I try to tell myself things could be a lot worst, clearly look at what our sisters and brothers are experiencing. I start a post on the UN worker who was killed by the israelis and I couldnt finish, it was too heartbreaking. To watch everyone sit by and nothing happens. I feel so sad for them :(. I have been wearing my hijab alhamdullilah, though i I have lapsed here and there. My eman is really low right now and I know why...but thats no excuse. Some one really closed to me betrayed me. Im having a really hard time getting past it. I know they are sorry and wants the best for me....that didnt stop them from hurting me however. I feel devastated one minute and Im laughing the next. My moods are soo up and down, I think my mom thinks I am bipolar. LOL. I just want to smile again.....ALL THE TIME..you know how something bad happens and it weighs on you and then you forget for a while, and then bam! It hits you and your down again. Its one of those things.... Thats all for now.

Sorry for not posting day#2 as a Hijabi. I am so busy in chicago. I plan on working posting a blog about being a hijabi in chicago later on which I talk about day 2(yesterday) and day 2 (today), alhamdullilah! STAY TUNED SISTERS!!!

Ok so today I woke up and I wore my hijab all day alhamdullilah! I was soo proud of myself. I have worn hijab before of course, but not like today, everywhere I went from the moment I left the house at noon till about 11:00 tonight when I got home. I went to the mall,bank, future in laws house, MY parents house, the pharmacy I intern at and several other places. The significance of this is that I have never worn my hijab around coworkers, to the mall I frequent, and most important my parents. Sure they have seen me with my pashima's wrapped casually around me with hair showing but today I was in full hijabi mode. Funny thing is, it was not so bad! Ok people did stare a little and that is a little uncomfortable and I had on my sunglasses most of the day and I felt like a coward for it (though I always have on sunglasses) so I took them and faced the world, hijab and all. At my parents house, they didnt even really mention it too much, which I guess is a good thing. My sis actually said I looked really cute. I went to visit my future in laws, and my fiance said wow, you look so beautiful as well as his mom kept hugging me Masha'allah!! He just kept telling me. He knows I am not very confident in hijab yet. When I walked into my job I intern at they were like wow, look at you??!! But overall, positive vibes. So you can imagine what I looked like, I created a set, see below:

Salaams everyone, this was an interesting week for me. My family is christian and I am muslim. This was my first holiday season as a muslim it was hard. It was hard to be with them and not feel bad because of what christmas represents. I did have dinner at my family's house and I had a good time. I took that time to explain to some friends and family the difference of Islam and Christianity. They were very receptive and respectful of my religion,alhamdullilah!! Although I was with them I was able to leave feeling good about my position in islam and about being a muslimah. I tried to participate in as a little as possible of actual christmas activities. I am very close to my family and so having dinner with them was just routine for us. Insha'allah I will become a full time hijabi January 1. Please make duas for me. Interestingly enough, I feel as if I need new wardrobe for my transition. Reading other sisters blogs I can see how a hijabi in tight or revealing clothing is not really a hijabi at all (aka hojabi as I have recently learned). I dont consider my clothes too revealing what so ever but they are not islamic. I think I will have a lot of shopping to do in the upcoming months. The funny thing is before becoming muslim I considered myself a modest dresser.LOL. Iam not modest enough to be a hijabi, in my current wardrobe. I think I will have to spend at least $1,ooo to get myself together for my transition,and insha'allah I will do this in january. These are some basic tops I would wear with pair of jeans:

I dont know about you all, but winter is my least favorite season. Here its like we get 6 months of winter, from october to april. It will literally snow that much!! It snowed all weekend here it and its depressing. I hate driving in the snow, you have to plan for a much longer commute from a to b, its just a mess. I think Im going to trade my car in for a SUV. I dont plan on being here much longer but I need a suv to make me not go insane. The problem with SUV's is gas is soo expensive, although its unbelievably cheap right now, but how long with it last?? I totally have the winter blues. Iam totally not an inspired muslimah, I should change my name to uninspired muslimah. Eid is tomorrow and I have an exam,so most likely I cannot even attend the prayer. Thats the cost of being muslim in America though. It really sucks! I have 2 more weeks of school to wrap of this semester before I have 2 whole weeks off, alhamdullilah!! I cannot wait. I will work on my blog, read quran, rest, and just get rejuvenated. Eid Mubarak everyone, is what I should be saying instead of crying about my life, Iam just down right now. I think I am getting sick..I have had this sore throat for a few days now.Today I literally have a test to study for tomorrow,a paper to finalize, a paper to type and 2 other assignments that I need to complete...:( Iam so unmotivated,make duas for me everyone, I have a long 2 weeks coming up and I seriously need a boost.