Inspired Muslimah

I have not been posting lately because I have been so overwhelmed with school. Test immediately following my winter break has snatched up all my time. I am also a little down. I had to pay $625 for my car to get 2 new tires and new breaks. That sucks so bad, because I couldve done soooo much more with that! I finally bought the new iphone and I am so in love with it. That cheered me up a little but I am still down. Its winter, its cold, muslims are dying in Gaza, school is hard...I can go on and on.I try to tell myself things could be a lot worst, clearly look at what our sisters and brothers are experiencing. I start a post on the UN worker who was killed by the israelis and I couldnt finish, it was too heartbreaking. To watch everyone sit by and nothing happens. I feel so sad for them :(. I have been wearing my hijab alhamdullilah, though i I have lapsed here and there. My eman is really low right now and I know why...but thats no excuse. Some one really closed to me betrayed me. Im having a really hard time getting past it. I know they are sorry and wants the best for me....that didnt stop them from hurting me however. I feel devastated one minute and Im laughing the next. My moods are soo up and down, I think my mom thinks I am bipolar. LOL. I just want to smile again.....ALL THE TIME..you know how something bad happens and it weighs on you and then you forget for a while, and then bam! It hits you and your down again. Its one of those things.... Thats all for now.

Pretty in Purple by Inspired Muslimah

What is the Ruling in Islaam concerning the Muslim woman who prays and fasts but does not wear the Hijaab (head cover)?:

Her fast and her prayer are correct and all praise is for Allah. But she must repent for abandoning the wearing of the Hijaab. Disobedience does not invalidate her prayer or her fasting. Not wearing the Hijaab, speaking in a way that is not good like backbiting or slandering then this does not invalidate her prayer but it does decrease her Imaan (faith) and weakens it. She must repent to Allah for that. Likewise the wearing of the Hijaab, not wearing it in front of men is disobedience but her fast is not invalidated nor her prayer. Rather she must repent for it. Not wearing the Hijaab is considered a weakness in Imaan.

Likewise other things such as backbiting the people or doing something from the acts of disobedience, etc all of this is a deficiency and weakness in Imaan. When she performs the prayer with its conditions and obligations on time then her prayer is correct. Likewise her fasting when she fasts from what is forbidden to her and performs it the way it should be then her fast is valid. When she performs the obligations but then she does some forms of disobedience there is deficiency in her act of fasting such as backbiting, lying and the like. It is a deficiency in her fasting and weakness in her religion.

Sorry for not posting day#2 as a Hijabi. I am so busy in chicago. I plan on working posting a blog about being a hijabi in chicago later on which I talk about day 2(yesterday) and day 2 (today), alhamdullilah! STAY TUNED SISTERS!!!

I am in chicago for the weekend and I heard there is a little section of town that sells alls arabic and islamic clothes,alhamdullilah, I am soo excited. I cant wait to go see what they have. I am staying at the beautiful hilton hotel on michigan avenue overlooking downtown, miles of shopping , the beautiful lake masha'allah (though frozen). I have been watching the news since I got here yesterday afternoon to keep up with the situation in Gaza and Iam sad that it has not improved. I am going to visit the masjid down the street and will take a picture or two from the outside as well as I will take pics on the street with all the islamic stores,which I will post,insha'allah. Chicago is soo beautiful and diverse! Its so nice to see a blend of all the different cultures coexisting!! The weather is actually decent, like high 30 f. Not bad since the last time I was here, it was blizzarding.I am going to go get dressed, stop by the masjid, and go onto the islamic stores and I will definitely report back. I hope to purchase so new hijabs,underscarves, maybe an abaya,a prayer rugs, and prayer beads..and what else I can not put down. LOL. I am on the 25 floor of the hotel and you can everything! Including all those million dollar lofts across the street, I mean, I can see into their living room!! Also, there are soo many muslims here! Yay!!!

Ok so today I woke up and I wore my hijab all day alhamdullilah! I was soo proud of myself. I have worn hijab before of course, but not like today, everywhere I went from the moment I left the house at noon till about 11:00 tonight when I got home. I went to the mall,bank, future in laws house, MY parents house, the pharmacy I intern at and several other places. The significance of this is that I have never worn my hijab around coworkers, to the mall I frequent, and most important my parents. Sure they have seen me with my pashima's wrapped casually around me with hair showing but today I was in full hijabi mode. Funny thing is, it was not so bad! Ok people did stare a little and that is a little uncomfortable and I had on my sunglasses most of the day and I felt like a coward for it (though I always have on sunglasses) so I took them and faced the world, hijab and all. At my parents house, they didnt even really mention it too much, which I guess is a good thing. My sis actually said I looked really cute. I went to visit my future in laws, and my fiance said wow, you look so beautiful as well as his mom kept hugging me Masha'allah!! He just kept telling me. He knows I am not very confident in hijab yet. When I walked into my job I intern at they were like wow, look at you??!! But overall, positive vibes. So you can imagine what I looked like, I created a set, see below:

As many of you know I live right here in good old america, the land of the free! Yeah right! I am feeling very unpatriotic right now. After the way america treats citizens of minority status as second class citizens, its not hard. They were mad when Michelle Obama said that for the first time in her adult like she was proud to be an American.WTF??? I understand completely. I was utterly disgusted when I read this morning that 9 muslim passengers ( click purple for link to msnbc article) were removed from a commercial airline flight from Washington, DC to Orlando, Florida. Apparently, one of the muslims had made a "suspicious comment". Airtran grounded the flight and the 9 muslim passengers consisting of a lawyer,an anesthesiologist, and other professionals, and 3 children. 8 out of the 9 travelers were american citizens and they were cleared by the FBI with no charges. Apparently, one of the passengers made a comment about the jets being close to the window and wondered if it was safe, or where the safest place on the plane was. SO the f*ck what!! Excuse me ladies for my terrible language. This just outrages me!! And get this?? Even after the FBI cleared them, Airtran refused to allow them to travel and MADE them PURCHASE new tickets with a new airline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In what world is this okay?? I am starting to hate America seriously. This is not right. I will never fly airtran again, honestly!! They always find someone to pick on. Since black people finally have some rights in the racist country, they pick on muslims now. The system allows it and that is sad. The FBI even told airtran they were cleared and there was no security concern but airtran would not let them on NOR did they apologize. Of the 9 people, they questioned one husband and wife who were having the conversation,but removed the other 7 MUSLIMS for association. They never even questioned them, they were just guilty by association. This is soo terrible. I feel like graduating and packing my stuff and leaving this place. I wont allow my future children to grow up in such an unfair corrupt country. Its these things that make me nervous to where hijab full time and the same thing that makes me want to wear my hijab proud and represent Islam!!!