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Saturday, January 3, 2009

First day as a Hijabi!! Alhamdullilah!

Ok so today I woke up and I wore my hijab all day alhamdullilah! I was soo proud of myself. I have worn hijab before of course, but not like today, everywhere I went from the moment I left the house at noon till about 11:00 tonight when I got home. I went to the mall,bank, future in laws house, MY parents house, the pharmacy I intern at and several other places. The significance of this is that I have never worn my hijab around coworkers, to the mall I frequent, and most important my parents. Sure they have seen me with my pashima's wrapped casually around me with hair showing but today I was in full hijabi mode. Funny thing is, it was not so bad! Ok people did stare a little and that is a little uncomfortable and I had on my sunglasses most of the day and I felt like a coward for it (though I always have on sunglasses) so I took them and faced the world, hijab and all. At my parents house, they didnt even really mention it too much, which I guess is a good thing. My sis actually said I looked really cute. I went to visit my future in laws, and my fiance said wow, you look so beautiful as well as his mom kept hugging me Masha'allah!! He just kept telling me. He knows I am not very confident in hijab yet. When I walked into my job I intern at they were like wow, look at you??!! But overall, positive vibes. So you can imagine what I looked like, I created a set, see below:


My hijabi outfit by Inspired Muslimah

I had on jeans, a black turtleneck sweater under a gray sweater dress, cute jewelry, my versace sunglasses, Bebe handbag, Tahari pumps, and a black hijab layered with a black and silver hijab over top. I felt really pretty for for the first time in hijab. I know this is not why we wear it, but it felt good to feel attractive. So many men were looking at me, this was weird!! I have never worn hijab to the mall before and it didnt keep the men from looking oddly enough. I lowered my gaze as I am learning to do and finished shopping. I bought several items from bath and body and 3 sets of bracelets from a stand in the middle of the mall. I can tell I am changing for the better alhamdullilah. I spent $ 60 at bath and body, $20 in the middle of the mall, and $75 at eyemasters for new contacts and I felt soooo bad. Normally I spend and spend and dont blink but today it felt so weird and I kept asking myself If I needed these things. I am proud of the changes I see in myself I hope to keep them up. Wearing it in front of family members and coworkers was new to me, and only awkward for a second. Honestly, I forgot I had the hijab on!! As I grow my outfits will get better but overall I think I looked pretty nice and islamic. My sweater dress fit loose and did not show my figure too much. I didnt have any hair showing and although I had earrings on, no one could see them. I also made sure that my actions were proper by lowering my gaze and not engaging in unnecessary conversation with men outside of my fiance and father. Today was a big step in the right direction, alhamdullilah, I hope I can keep it up. I will let you all know how day #2 (tomorrow) turns out!

20 comments:

*~Ange~* said...

congrats!

at first you always nptice people staring but after about a week you dont care anymore and you dont notice it anymore

Empress Anisa said...

Inspired- good for you, Momma! Wow, what a HUGE step... see Allah (SWT) will make it easy for you. As Ange said, in the beginning you kinda notice everybody looking but after awhile they all blend into the wall.
MashaAllah, I'm sooooo proud and happy for you!

Sabina said...

:))))
Looking forward to hearing about your day two! :)

Zaenab said...

omg well done!!! hope day 2 goes well :D xxxxxxxxx

Random Muslima said...

salamu alaykum,

mabrok and may Allah make it easy for you!

Pixie said...

As salaam alaykom ramatullah wa barakato!!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH I am so proud of you girl, may Allah S.W.T make your strong and steadfast in your imaan and increase your knowledge in al Islam. LOL. I felt the same when I wore hijab for the first time. I found men kept staring at me until I started wearing jilbab. Hijab (as a scarf) just made me recognizable as a Muslim but it was jilbab that finally hid all my curves. It is too hard to do that all at once, and I think I stuck with hijab for the first almost-a-year point. What I love most about the hijab itself (headscarf aspect) is that it makes me analyze my public actions, like being loud, or how and when I talk to men (as you mentionied). Big squeeze for you sis (internet hug).

Umm Travis said...

Yes, subhanAllah, as Pixie said - wearing the hijab makes us see ourselves in a whole new light, ma shaa Allah, and refine our character in ways we never imagined possible... it is a beautiful process, ma shaa Allah, and I pray Allah gives you the strength, eman, and courage to continue.

By the way, I have tagged u on my privae blog so please accept the invite in shaa Allah!

Jana said...

Mabroook!!! Inshallah it'll all be uphill from now :D

Re: men staring. Contrary to popular opinion, men will always stare no matter what - hijab, jilbab, niqab, whatever. Unfortuantely, it seems to be the Muslim men who do so, in my experience. It's like they don't feel as bad checking out a Muslimah or something??? Who knows lol.

Diali said...

MachAllah, congratulations...
I agree with Jana, men stare when you wear hijab, and I feel that the most when I go to halal market, so I always go with my hubby

Haniyya_Sturm said...

Mabrouk !!!!!! Mashallah, m so happy for you sis. Reminded me of the day i first wore my hijab. I felt so liberated. lol, from myself to be honest. to be able to take that stand. And i so love yr set, esp the shayla. *thumbsup*

Millz said...

mashaAllah! congrats! sounds like you had a very good experience with being a hijabi! working on getting to that point myself. i always feel so self-conscious. :( can't wait to hear about day 2!!!

Megan said...

Mabrook! That first day is the toughest, but masha'allah you did it! Men (and others) will stare at you, but as you acquire more islamic clothes they won't be able to see a thing.
Your outfit sounds gorgeous, I like the silver and black hijab...now I want one :)
Walaikum asalaam.

Hijabis On Ranting Tour. said...

Assalamualaikum wrb Awww subhan'Allah sis, it takes time foryou to grasp the hijab thing but insy'Allah i'm sure you'll be ready one day and heyyy enjoy every moment that you have in yr hijab subhan'Allah, it really is a magical feeling to have that piece of cloth over our heads isn't it? :)

Halal Honey said...

Inspired Muslimah
MashAllah, I am soooo proud of you girl!!:) I want to give you a huge hug. May Allah (s.w.t.) continue to keep you strong. Oh, and your outfit looks so pretty, too!:)

M.J. said...

Congrats, sis!!!! I'm so amazed and proud of you, masAllah. Definately will have you in my duas, sister. Your outfit is gorgeous too, I think you're gonna have to start putting up some sets to help me out LOL :P

Inspired Muslimah said...

ALL: Thanks sooo much! I love all the support I get from my sisters in islam!!!

Anonymous said...

Masha'allah its great you started wearing hijab, may allah increase you in your iman. The men were looking at you because you still were not properly dressed. It takes time to get used to it.

Tak care

Mar said...

aww good for you! :)

Inspired Muslimah said...

Thanks Mar!

Simply said...

Good for you!

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