Surah of the week

" The originator of the heavens and earth! When He decreeth a thing,He saith unto it only: Be! and it is.
(2:117)

Monday, January 12, 2009

Feeling kinda down lately...

I have not been posting lately because I have been so overwhelmed with school. Test immediately following my winter break has snatched up all my time. I am also a little down. I had to pay $625 for my car to get 2 new tires and new breaks. That sucks so bad, because I couldve done soooo much more with that! I finally bought the new iphone and I am so in love with it. That cheered me up a little but I am still down. Its winter, its cold, muslims are dying in Gaza, school is hard...I can go on and on.I try to tell myself things could be a lot worst, clearly look at what our sisters and brothers are experiencing. I start a post on the UN worker who was killed by the israelis and I couldnt finish, it was too heartbreaking. To watch everyone sit by and nothing happens. I feel so sad for them :(. I have been wearing my hijab alhamdullilah, though i I have lapsed here and there. My eman is really low right now and I know why...but thats no excuse. Some one really closed to me betrayed me. Im having a really hard time getting past it. I know they are sorry and wants the best for me....that didnt stop them from hurting me however. I feel devastated one minute and Im laughing the next. My moods are soo up and down, I think my mom thinks I am bipolar. LOL. I just want to smile again.....ALL THE TIME..you know how something bad happens and it weighs on you and then you forget for a while, and then bam! It hits you and your down again. Its one of those things.... Thats all for now.

12 comments:

Halal Honey said...

Aw, what's wrong girl? You know you can always email me. I hope you feel better soon!

Millz said...

Salaams, sis. Sorry to hear you're feeling down. May Allah swt make things easier for you.

Haniyya_Sturm said...

Assalamualaikum sis!

First A big fat *hug* from tiny me. lol ! And i guess the "bug of betrayal" is flying around. Sigh ! I know it must hurt. Been going through similar things, but i just keep telling myself...Its Allah swt way of protecting me from individuals who are not genuine. What matters most, is we have our loved ones who are there for us.

Getting closer to Allah swt is no joke, from time to time you will be tested. Inshallah may u pass his test with flying colours !

Anyway could i have yr email address ? I have a little something for you. Actually its for any sisters who have started wearing hijab. And you are the first i know for now !!!

you could email me on my business acct : haniyya_jewelz@hotmail.com

Take care !

and keep smiling *hugz*

Inspired Muslimah said...

Halal Honey: Thanks hon! I appreciate the support and I will email you actually. :D

Millz: Thanks sis! I needed to hear that.

Haniyyah_Sturm: Sis thanks for the hug I needed it. :D
and yes sis my email is inspiredmuslimah@hotmail.com. I look forward to hearing from you!

washi said...

Salaam Sis, you're welcome to come visit me in sunny hot Cape Town at this time of year. Even though I'm studying (and it's been tough on this old brain :-D) and I'm nervous of the exams which start this week, the weather is just so beautiful mash'Allah, that it totally lifts my spirit...come visit me - it's too cold there!!

M.J. said...

Salam Alekium sis, sorry you're feeling stressed out. InshAllah your exams will be over soon and you'll have done wodnerfully. Sucks about having to dish out so much for the breaks and tires, but at least you won't have to again for awhile.
As for the betrayal thing, all I can say is yes it's hard. Very few people haven't experienced it, unfortunately. InshAllah it will just make you stronger in the end. I think at first it's just so shocking that it makes dealing with it hard for a little while. I'll make dua for you sis, and I hope you start feeling better soon! Remember we all care about you so much and wish you all the best. You're in my duas :)

Inspired Muslimah said...

Washi:Thanks for the invite sis,I can use a getaway and yes the weather is terrible!!!! Good luck in your schooling as well sis and I appreciate your support

M.J.:Thanks so much sis. yes I am pretty down but seriously all the support I receive here is overwhelming. Thanks soo much for those kind words and thanks for make duas for me. I love you guys!!!

Random Muslima said...

Salamu alaykum,

inshaALlah a brighter page will soon turn in your life.. I've been lately thinking a lot too what is happening around the world and the easiness to despair.. actually was blogging about it but I need to take a picture tomorrow inshaAllah before posting it ;)

Francesca Najea Lujan said...

As-Salamu-Alaikum Inspired Muslimah,
You are not alone!!! It's very cold in Morocco too. Except that our houses aren't heated - so it's freezing when you shower, go to sleep, wake-up, uuugggghhhh! I guess you would think that I exercise to stay warm - right? NOPE!!! I stay as still as possible, bundled up drinking hot tea. I just want you to know - you are not the only one. Now, let's all cheer-up!
Ma'aSalaama,
Najea

Inspired Muslimah said...

Random Muslima: I know you are right sister, I think many people are suffering from the winter blues! I will definitely check out your post insha'allah.

Francesca Najea Lujan: Sis do your best to try to stay warm. I have my heat up actually quite high bc here on the eastcoast of the US we are under a cold front. Its literally 13 degrees not including the windchill and by friday it will 4 degrees (farenheit) and -25 with the windchill, the coldest its been here in over 10 years
!!! Just stay warm sis and thanks for the support

Naimah Umm Khadijah said...

Assalamu 'alaykum sis, Aaw, hope things are better for you now, subhanAllaah when you've been betrayed by someone it's hard, but insha Allaah just look forward sis, and not back.
Keep on striving sis, may Allaah make it easy for you, ameen.x

Inspired Muslimah said...

Naimah Umm Khadijah: Thanks sis. :D

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